Poetry

Poems by Nichole Hastings

Explanation Due

I’m not going to chase after you

So you can push me away

I’m not going to hold onto you tight

So you can tell others “had to run away”

I’m not going to ask for your support

So you can sigh then grudgingly agree

I’m not going to stand by your side

While you criticize judge false friend others and me

You tried to make me feel bad about my monthly

You tried to make me feel bad about my work

You accused me of cheating one two three times

Said some women are happy with just dinner and a fuck

You said every girl you’ve ever been with

Has told you that you’re an asshole

Well you’re the common denominator hon

And I agree you ain’t been a very good beau

So now that you’ve decided it’s over

Now you want to be my friend

And now you want to be open

To trust and have good communication

Sorry dear that’s just not gonna happen

You had over a year to be a worthy boyfriend

To participate with good communication

You wasted so many opportunities to be genuine

Now I no longer care to concern

For trust is earned not an expected given

You’re fourth tier off my mountain

Honored title “friend” is not synonymous with forgiven

So stop trying to control the situation

Stop trying to force your agenda on me

You want friendship? Explanation due.

Or kindly fuck off and leave me be

@nicholehastings

Just My Heart

A fortune teller once told me
That love won’t find me easily
And my mother once told me
That I’m very naive
And I once told me
I will not make the same foolish mistakes
I won’t be fooled
Again
Again
I’ll be more vigilant
More careful
More tender
More loving

With my heart

I’ll still risk
Expirament
Take chances
See if there’s anything there
Something
And I do
And I did
And I will
But in the ends
Once again
(T)here I am
Again
Suffering
Streaming
Screaming
Drinking ’til I drown
Alone

Once again

Moral fiber
Fuck you
Oh growth and maturity
Fuck you
Let’s be friends but sex
Fuck you
Oh life goes on
What is, is
Just keep putting yourself out there
Fuck you

FUCK YOU

People will say
You shouldn’t have done that
And people will say
I could have told you that
And people will say
It’ll be okay
It’ll be okay
It’s not you, it’s they
And you’ll love again
Some day
Some day
And you’ll meet someone amazing
One day
And you’ll meet someone worthy
Of you
One day
I might find religion
And I might pray pray pray
But some people die alone in spite of loving more
And I’m afraid I might
One day

But hey

Life goes on
And hey
It’s just my heart
But hey
Life goes on
And hey
Next time I won’t be so naive
And hey
Next time not so foolish
And hey
Next time it’ll be easy
The way some people say
True love will be
And hey
Next time I’ll know those red flags
And hey
Sometime
At some point
Some day
I’ll meet that someone special

And that time
That time
That time
That fucking time
I won’t be sad
I won’t be a fool
I will love more
And that time
At that time
By that time
I might be lying at death’s door

But hey

I do
And I did
And I will
Continue to love more
To love more
To love more
To love more
To love
Fucking
More

TO LOVE FUCKING MORE

Cuz hey

It’s just my heart

@nicholehastings

50 Lives in America

Really sad, the gay mass shooting. Really sad about this latest mass shooting. Really sad I can use the word “latest” to preface mass shooting. Really sad there are people celebrating this mass shooting.

Really sad I can’t donate blood. Really sad I can’t give ALL my friends, gay/straight/other a hug. Really sad to see the hypocrisy of land of the free. Selling guns, selling rights, taking lives. Really sad, really sad, really glad, really glad because I am and am not (t)here and free.

@nicholehastings

Missing Ingredient

Come for the weather they said.
For the delicious food,
The wonderful people,
The great lifestyle …

Madrid, you -are- fantastically amazing
In all those respects
But your costume selection
And costuming opportunities are weak.

Where the crazy costume apparel at?
The vintage clothing stores?
The second-hand donation-based thrift shops
With totally epic finds just waiting to be found?

The most interesting piece of apparel
I’ve stumbled across here
Was at el rastro
And it was a flamenco dress.

 

@nicholehastings

Asian Fetish Cure

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Sure, I look like a sweet
submissive little Asian hottie
whose only desires are
to honor your every wish,
serve your every need,
and be your knee-high-socks
schoolgirl-uniform-wearing
sexual plaything
like in that porno you watched
the other night.

But on the inside
I’m a cantankerous 80-year old man
who knows waaaaaay more about
anything and everything than you,
doesn’t like being told how when or what to do,
and will tell you where to go stick it
while yelling at you to
“Get off my lawn!”
“Learn from your mistakes!”
as I spray you with the hose.

@nicholehastings